i hate that i care so much but i do
how the fuck
can this all boil down to four digits
i do not understand

why am i crying
i do not understand

how
i do not understand

i hate
i hate
i hate



perceptions of myself make me
cringe
why do i need to perfect
why do i care
so
much
why
why
why
why
why
why

this doesn't matter
but it does