we are sitting at the diner table
we argue over whether the glass
is a two way mirror or faintly tinted
we talk about the music we have heard
we recount memories
we eat

i can see no foreseeable ending
you are saying to me
i used to be able to foresee the fall
but not with this
(not with me)
college
is a marking point
though
to hear you say it aloud
is oddly terrifying

that is how i would want it
though if it happens that way
it would be sad
you are still talking to me
and i lock eyes with you
so many more times
because i cannot get enough
of these moments
because i know i will not have them
when they're gone

we pay the bill
we buy rubber fruit snacks for dessert
you wait with me for my train

when i am home
i brush my teeth
my eyes catch on an
infinity sign on the paper
packet behind my toothbrush
charger
infinity has no beginning
nor an ending
and i realize the symbol
fits the word

friendship has no expiration date
why can't we

i feel childish in my longing

i want this
to be eternal
it has already become
to me
as solid
as the ground beneath my feet

ignorance is bliss they say
live in the moment they say
shut up and kiss me they say
they say
they say
they say

if i open my eyes do you promise to be there?
i do not know if i will remember how to be
without you by my side