you honestly are not worth my time anymore

this is the conclusion i have come to

because i do not get

how you can not understand

how you can pretend to forgive

but still so blatantly do not understand

i will run my fingertips over my bare stomach

and you will laugh and tease me but i will sense

your bitterness and i will not surrender

to the carefree

i will distract and i will taunt and i will evade

and pull down my shirt hurriedly

lets go get ice cream

as if everything is alright

as if everything is not alright

and still you can not understand

i will never expose myself to you again

and i will not reach out.

when you reach out it seems

your hand hits gel

and reverberates

like ice cubes

in a plastic ziplock

when you feel the wetness

feel the cold

and pull your hands away

and they are dry

that is how we are now
(and you cannot understand)