Thinking of you

So you left me a token of your unspoken love
Words in your hand cautious and clear print
Only a hint of feeling more
Could have gone unnoticed
Gifted me a moment of surprise
What it must’ve been like to live through your eyes

I never realized
How special it might have made you feel
You know that I love you
Don’t you?
You must know what I feel

Today I was thinking what lessons did I learn
From being with you
About my own judgment hasty and freewheeling
Swallowing two
About your own propensity to fence yourself in
About us both double projecting
How some things never get their ending
But that can’t rob you of the time

I clean my entire room
Face wet with tears blue
Happy, sad, gratitude
Thinking of you.