jealousy

so much nervous energy
built up in the tips of my fingers
i need to check
and check
and check
and recheck
i cannot be happy
and angry simultaneously
but i want what they have
and they are so lucky
and they are so good
ugh
they are so good
so much nervous energy
my fingers are bounding bounding
and stumbling and jumping and i can't change
my mind because its going in circles and only
a second has passed and i want i want i want