i see my name in your inbox
and my heart skips a beat
when i remember i'm a part of your life
im not on the outside looking in
(this is real
i'm your friend)

we watch movies
all of us in a dark basement
and i enjoy it until
i see that the girl next to you
has casually placed
her leg on yours
i push it off with my eyes
(she doesn't even know you)
you just sit still but i still can't
help it my mind scrunches
up with unjustified jealousy

(when i smile
i try to catch your eye
when i laugh
i want you to catch mine)

you catch me
but not enough or not
what i think to be nearly enough
or maybe not
nearly what i want to be enough

i want to remember
all this forever
but i'm too lazy to write
it down

(i want you to be mine
but i'm too scared
to make a sound)